Consider this a new chapter in your life. You are not closing your heart to Madrid, just relocating. You put your mind to moving to Madrid and look how rich you are with experiences, memories, friends and language! You have succeeded, my friend, with that chapter in your life and now it's time for a new one. Who knows what your future holds, but always remain optimistic that everything will work out for you and you will come back to Madrid. This is not "adios", just "hasta luego".

Stay strong, STeve, and know that I'm thinking of you here in California and you always have an open invitation to come out west@!