P.S. By the way, I'm not going home to the USA. I'M STAYING IN MADRID!
That is fantastic news and I am extremely happy for you. It takes courage or like a New Yorkers would say you have a pair, to do what you just did! There are not many people I know that are willing to do what you just did.
So the answer to have a better life is not die and go to heaven, but move there!
I know this website is going to be more interesting website because now you live in Spain! An Amercian living in Spain, might make a good book or movie.
Bill